Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Reality
lookin at the sky
the whitish-grey clouds
it filled up all the space in my eyes
tht was all i could see
and with the breeze blowin at me
nice feelin but no mood at all
outside..it felt really gd
inside...it felt really bad
my heart..deep down inside
i dun feel lik it.
totally.
dun feel lik livin
nth seems to be goin right
first it was my sch wk
the quality of my wk is gettin worse
juz lik wat ms chai said abt mine
dun feel lik studyin nowadays too
class is interestin lik sci..hist.
but i juz dun feel lik listenin
thn its todays sports heat
is it considered a failure
or juz another lesson/exp. tht i received
but at least not as i xpec
nth seems to satisfy me as in studies and sports
all i wanna do is juz to
sleep.. go to sch..return home..eat..do my own things..sleep again
i juz dun feel lik listenin to my mom anymore
not tht i dun wanna listen
juz tht i dun FEEL lik it
watever she says..juz doesnt go into my ears
dun lik wat she says
i juz lik to read books and sleep and eat
coz of a few reaasons
by readin..i can be so engrossed tht i hav a feelin tht im in the story itself..
or belong to it..i forget abt the outside world..no need to care
by sleepin..i can throw away all my unhappiness..dun needa face reality
can hear nth .. see nth..dun needa care abt anything
by eatin..dunno..juz get carried off. so happy whn eatin some food.
juz the sound of it also makes me happy
my family..
dun wanna face thm
the only person i really talk to is my maid
lik my godmom
anythin..abt everythin..also tell her one..
when i get upset or happy..
anytime..when i feel like it
shes the 1st person i approach
the only one.
E. S. C. A. P. I. N. G.
F. R. O. M.
R. E. A. L. I. T. Y.
D. U. N.
F. E. E. L.
L. I. K. E.
L. I. V. I. N. G.
W. H. A. T. S.
W. R. O. N. G.
W. I. T. H.
M. E?
the whitish-grey clouds
it filled up all the space in my eyes
tht was all i could see
and with the breeze blowin at me
nice feelin but no mood at all
outside..it felt really gd
inside...it felt really bad
my heart..deep down inside
i dun feel lik it.
totally.
dun feel lik livin
nth seems to be goin right
first it was my sch wk
the quality of my wk is gettin worse
juz lik wat ms chai said abt mine
dun feel lik studyin nowadays too
class is interestin lik sci..hist.
but i juz dun feel lik listenin
thn its todays sports heat
is it considered a failure
or juz another lesson/exp. tht i received
but at least not as i xpec
nth seems to satisfy me as in studies and sports
all i wanna do is juz to
sleep.. go to sch..return home..eat..do my own things..sleep again
i juz dun feel lik listenin to my mom anymore
not tht i dun wanna listen
juz tht i dun FEEL lik it
watever she says..juz doesnt go into my ears
dun lik wat she says
i juz lik to read books and sleep and eat
coz of a few reaasons
by readin..i can be so engrossed tht i hav a feelin tht im in the story itself..
or belong to it..i forget abt the outside world..no need to care
by sleepin..i can throw away all my unhappiness..dun needa face reality
can hear nth .. see nth..dun needa care abt anything
by eatin..dunno..juz get carried off. so happy whn eatin some food.
juz the sound of it also makes me happy
my family..
dun wanna face thm
the only person i really talk to is my maid
lik my godmom
anythin..abt everythin..also tell her one..
when i get upset or happy..
anytime..when i feel like it
shes the 1st person i approach
the only one.
E. S. C. A. P. I. N. G.
F. R. O. M.
R. E. A. L. I. T. Y.
D. U. N.
F. E. E. L.
L. I. K. E.
L. I. V. I. N. G.
W. H. A. T. S.
W. R. O. N. G.
W. I. T. H.
M. E?
i know that i have loved you ... at 21:47
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